"I Want You To Want Me"/ "All I Have To Give" (Medley)

"I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me."

"All the money in the world,
could never add up to all the love,
I have inside... "

I was having a conversation with a friend recently (does it count if it was online?) and I jokingly mentioned how I'm saving my money to buy a girlfriend (no, I don't mean a "prostitute"!). And though I say it as a joke, it does carry an air of seriousness with it for me.

Being in a "relationship" is more than just making it out, buying things for the other, spending time with the other, or making love. Though all these things may be (and probably are) involved with being in a relationship, it's no good if there is no reciprocated love or if the amount of love reciprocated by both people is unequal. For example, a girl might like a guy because he's witty, fun to snuggle with, and gives allows her her space while the guy might like the girl because she's able and willing to pay for things when he can't and she's a good lay every now and then. Or, perhaps the guy loves the girl for her quirkiness, her cute demeanor, and her ability to wrap her head around serious issues when she needs to while the girl is in love with the things her man buys for her (until she gets tired of them) and his money (until he becomes poor).

I can't help but feel pity for those who give their love, true and justified, to another who can not love them in return or, perhaps, not in the same way. Maybe it's because I often end up playing that guy. One friend of mine once told me not too long ago, bewildered as to why I could not find a suitable special someone, "You have so much love to give but... I don't know. You never get the chance... [girls] never give you the chance." Thus, I came up with my ass-backwards solution: If I'm rich I can pay someone to love me. I mean, it wouldn't literally be "Hello, girl. I'll give you $2000 to love me for a month." No, more like I would spend so much on her and make her happy (which would make me happy) that she would tolerate me and, in return, allow me to hold her hand... maybe even in public!
Yes, it's stupid. No, It's not too far fetched. I think my theory could prove to be very successful with many females these days. But it would not certainly work with all girls... and hopefully I can find one of them that will love me back. Really, that's what I'd really like: Someone to return my love. Love, if it could even be called that, would be so hollow if I loved her so deeply and she loved me strictly for my material riches. I want her to love me because I'd treat her well and with respect; because I'd be loyal; because I'd be able to provide for her emotionally and materially; because I'd be there whenever I could be. Yeah, I'd want to spoil her (because, after all, I love her) but it certainly wouldn't be one of the most vital things our relationship would be built upon. I might be asking a lot (more than most), but I'd want her to love me for who I am.

But considering, not only my unchanging single-status, but how little interest is sent my way... Well, I suppose I better start saving up.